Now, if I was working with one of my younger OT kids and I said this to them, they would literally think I hit a physical wall with my physical person perhaps blackening my eye in the process. I love these concrete thinking years . . . like the time I told a kid that he was on fire because he was rocking his OT activity and the sweet little dude stopped, dropped, and rolled thinking he was literally on fire. I really have to remember my words.
Anyway . . .
In the last several months I have become kid yoga certified, added 2 kid yoga classes to my practice every Saturday morning, became Hippotherapy Level 1 trained, started a Hippotherapy program, added aquatic therapy to my practice, became a Certified Aromatherapist, a Certified Nutritional Therapist, bought and trained on the use of my Cold Laser with Harmonic Frequencies tool, written a 200 page book and turned it into my hopefully futuristic publisher, bought a car for my nearly 16-year-old daughter, sold a house, paid off some debt, cooked dinner every night except for Monday nights because I work from 8 am to 6 pm, I’m now a rep for Juice Plus+, a Playologist for SimplyFun, and a wholesaler for Plant Therapy, and I could go on but you get the picture by now I’m sure.
In between all of this, I am studying acupuncture, meridians, quantum physics, the power of the subconscience, Eastern medicine, subtle energy, and nutrition as I attempt to raise a family, give my husband some love and attention, see after my two dogs (one has injured his eye badly and requires drops every 4 hours), see after my fish, clean my clinic, do laundry, grocery shop, and take care of my yard, which is not going so well at the moment. I also volunteered to take care of the neighborhood flower bed and grounds for the entire month of September.
What this has done to me . . .
I am behind in paperwork, I have not spent good quality time with my kids, I have not walked a dog in God knows how long, my yard is a mess, I have not had time to exercise or follow my Weight Watchers like I was therefore putting 12 pounds back on, I was down to only having to lose 5 more and now it is 17 if not more, and I have gotten myself sick more times than ever before in my whole life.
I have to be honest, I have this growing sense that is pushing me because I feel as if now is the time to get all the things done that I have always wanted to accomplish because I’m not so young anymore. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
My husband aka The Professor allows me a freedom of expression that I never had before and it has opened up parts of my mind I didn’t know existed like my love of quantum physics for example. Who knew that this kid would dig this? I am studying thing at an atomic and molecular level, which is the most fascinating thing in the world to me. You may ask why? Well, there are aspects of treatment that I am doing at the clinic that I want to know EXACTLY why it works because that is how my mind works and always has. I want to know everything there is to know about oxidation, free radicals, phytochemicals, pro and prebiotics, superfoods, and what our Western medicine, food, and environment is doing to our bodies . . . its killing them by the way and creating a lot of ‘syndromes’ and genetic disorders, I can assure you.
I have never felt so compelled to learn at the rate that I am, though I have always studied because I am a great big nerd and I hunger for knowledge, but now it seems to be ravenous for some reason.
For the first time in a LONG time, I turned out the light in my office after shutting down my computer, let my husband cook for me, put my 1 of 4 books that I’m reading at the same time down, and sat on the back porch cuddled up with my husband, our lit fire pit, lit candles, a blanket, the two dogs, and watched the Booze Traveler as he/Jack made his way through Siberia and it was the best night I’ve had in a while.
Whatever is compelling me to utilize 100% of my brain capacity at the moment, needs to be dampened every once in a while or I feel like I will stroke out or something. My husband was so giddy last night that I was in his presence relaxed and smiling and it was at that moment that I realized, I’m letting my learning get out of hand and neglecting the important things in life.
I need to remove my imprinted outline of self from the wall, heal my wounds that the wall inflicted, and chill the hell out.
Losing site of what is important happens to all of us from time to time but the sign of a wise soul is the one who steps back from the wall and then turns to embrace the important things in life.